:/

There is a reason why I can't be left by myself for long periods of time. Because I start to think too many thoughts that make me paranoid, or self conscious, basically just depreciated etcetcetcetcetc. and just depressing thoughts that make me wanna up my dosage.
I try not to be so negative but they just fucking creep up and before I realize it I'm totally depressed.
Then I get stuck in a shitty mood and don't get out of bed and sleep for toooo long. Which then gives me more time to think of why I'm such a social reject and why I'm alone and everyone else has someone.
And it also makes me feel bad for wasting people's time.
I need school to come back so I can keep my mind busy.
Also, I need to stop feeling bad for myself. Next time this happens I need to get out of the fucking house and talk to a homeless person or something, see how bad I really have it.
Last whiny post.. for at least another week, I swear.
I'm just trying to make everyone feel bad for me.

♪ The Red Chord - Send The Death Storm