rawrrrggg erg ugh

I don't want to go to work today.
I don't feel like seeing people or dealing with people.
Kevin's parents are all here now because he graduates tomorrow. And I promised I would go a long time ago, but I didn't realize it would be at 8 a.m.! I don't want to. I don't feel like pretending to be all happy to see people.
I just want to ditch the whole weekend and go do my own thing. And see Dave, I don't know if he even wants to hang out anymore.
I want to move out on my own right now soo bad. I went to bed at 5 a.m. last night and all I thought about was trying to figure out a way to get my own place. I couldn't sleep anyway. Maybe 45 minutes total for sleep. I don't feel tired though. I don't really care about sleeping anymore, cause if I just drink a pot of coffee I'm good to go. I don't have any reason to give my mind rest anyway. I don't want to either because when I think too much bad things pop into my head.
Ugh it's gonna be a long 4 hour shift. Just because I don't know what is going on with everything/everybody.
I hope the nice doctor is working today because I cannot deal with someone treating me like shit today. People better watch out.