So my mom is telling me that I have to find a place to live and let her know by the end of the week.
Uhh, ok? And what are you gonna do about it? Take my birthday away? hahah I remember saying that in like 5th grade.
Anyway........................
I'm fucked.
Pretty positive I can't/won't be living on my own.
Not sure anyone wants me.
This month is stressing me out. Like a lot!
I'm sick of crying every day and being in a bad mood always.
Not good for a person. Not supposed to be having anxiety attacks anymore!
Now there's only two weeks left and if I have to go to Corning I will be balling the whole way there.
I don't want to leave this area, or Dave (even if he won't date me!), or have to find a new job (even though I hate it, I like most of the people I work with).
I feel like going back to Corning would be like just going backwards. I know if I move back in with my mom I would just turn into myself from high school again. It took a lot for me to get myself this far--yeah, yeah, even though it's not such a huge accomplishment and I have a ways to go.
I just paid the $270.00 I owed to Sage. So they will be sending my transcript to UAlbany, then I can start picking out my classes, and maybe get a dorm or something. Yay progress.
Maybe Doug Henning can help me:
what do you mean turn into who you were from highschool? and who are you now?
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