yo

Staying with Dave now. It's going alright except we can't seem to stop arguing. And I don't really feel super comfortable yet living in someone else's house and it kind of sucks not having all of my stuff with me.

My manager is making me take next week off because they are worried about me and think I'm not taking care of myself. I guess I wasn't for a little while there. But now I'm not going to have any fucking money! Which is the last thing I need right now! Fuck.

I reallly really reallyreally reallyl want to go to the lake and chill for a week. Get wasted with my family and relax. Sometimes I miss summer in Corning, because there are a bunch of lakes near and everyone has a cottage to hang out at. I miss spending the summer at the lake. It sounds soooo nice right now. Instead it's shitty and rainy here. I need to go somewhere and get my shit straightened out. I need to relax. I can't take all this stress all at once anymore. It's really wearing me out. I'm so tired.

I hate not having my own money too. After I get paid I need to get gas, pay a bunch of bills and then all my money's gone. I'm about to start taking the bus..