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I should make up my own language. Then, on the rare occasion I do talk to people, they won't even know what I'm saying!

I'm getting more and more reclusive. Maybe it's a good thing. This semester is going to be killer with three labs a week.. and Dr. Kutz for a 380 level course. ew.

It's kind of hard to not be drunk all the time also. I just want to come home and get stewed and go to sleep. What's going on? I think I need to wear warmer shoes.. yeah.. that's it.

Now that I'm in organic chemistry, I'm remembering all the things I love about chemistry. Fuck. Maybe I will go to pharmacy school after all.. I'm really torn between biology and chemistry. Right now chemistry is winning because I'm in micrbiology this semester. A.K.A. the most boring bio course you'll ever take. I wish I could have taken A&P II so I could do the blood/circulatory system/heart units. Which are what I was looking forward to.

I need to talk to an advisor. ASAP

NM

This is an abandoned house in the middle of the New Mexican desert that I'm going to inhabit. After I change my identity of course.

New specs

hai. i lahk tuh ware glalses.

yay

One good thing.. I made the Dean's List last semester. I just got the letter in the mail.

Also, I just happened to glance at a bookshelf in the library at school and "Death Dictionary" caught my eye. It was pretty cool. Definitions of everything having to do with death and dying. Slang/medical/legal/mythical. So I read that for an hour and a half. haha Some of the words/definitions were pretty funny to see fully written out and printed on paper.

What a crappy week.

So I've only gotten to two faces in the face a day book. That's no good.

Today was my frist day of Cell & Molecular biology and it is going to be ridiculously hard. I might as well forget about doing anything this semester besides studying. Because I know organic and biochemistry isn't going to be easy, and microbiology is just going to be tedious. That's 3 labs a week. My cell & molecular professor is expecting A LOT from us though. It's insane.

brkfst

There's a livejournal blog dedicated to breakfast. haha It's kind of cool. Makes me hungry.

Here's my breakfast. I love Clementines!

True Blood

Jessica brought us the first season of True Blood. It's ok so far. I thought it would be better because it was created by Alan Ball, and I loveddd Six Feet Under. Some of the vampire parts are a bit cheesy and cliche but it's still pretty good.

I love the opening credits video though. The show takes place in Louisiana--if you can't tell.

So cool:

I also like the Six Feet Under intro:

haha I don't know why I care about the intros, they're so good though.

I should definitely get Six Feet Under on DVD.

hi

It's not fair when people assume that they know your intentions after barely talking to you 3 or 4 times. I let very few people into my head.. and I do random things just for the hell of it, with no reasoning behind them. haha

I guess I surprise people a lot, not intentionally and not always in a good way.

Oh well you can't win everyone over..

Also, I need to stop letting people walk all over me. I try to hard to be nice and it never pays off. I just end up resenting that person and being a total fake cause that's not how I am.

I also need to get a life.

I also need food cause I'm hungry.

ok

Yesterdays face:

I was cleaning out a drawer that I stuff all kinds of junk in and I found an old biology lab notebook and I was flipping through it and in the middle was this:

I don't know why. But I thought it was funny. Why did I write that? Definitely not a lab.

huuh

I hate that when I drink a lot, the next day I always feel so depressed. blah. I don't feel like doing anything.

There is a lot of music on my Ipod that needs to be deleted. haha Sometimes when I put it on shuffle the weirdest/worst songs come on and I'm like wtf was I thinking when I downloaded this shit.

School starts Tuesday! Sexy.

I'm somotherfuckingbored.

Wow, I feel like shit.

Ok.

I made an appointment to get an eye exam.. I made sure it was when another doctor was in, instead of the asshole doctor who bitches me out everytime I work because the charts aren't in perfect order or something else completely pointless. Like it would fucking kill him to read the times at the top of them. He has all these ridiculous rules that he never tells me, so I don't know how I'm supposed to read his mind and follow them. He just likes to bitch. There's a lot of customers who ask me to schedule them when another doctor is on, hahah, which I think is funny. I don't blame them.

Oh and the brakes on my car died. Just in time for school.

I have classes on the Albany campus and then I have one on the Troy campus. On wednesdays my class in albany ends at 1:50 and the one in Troy starts at 2. It takes 20 minutes to get to Troy. wtf. I think my professor will let me leave early since she is my advisor and made this dumb schedule for me in the first place.

Oh yeah, I scanned another drawing but it's on Kevins computer and I didn't send it to my computer, and I just turned it off.

Life is so complicated.

Not really.

Now I'm just saying shit for the hell of it.

Art. yes

This is a picture Kevins neice painted for me when we went to Ocean City with them this summer. So cute. It's me! She even got the combover hair right.. and the green smile. hehe It's on our fridge but I've decided to play with the scanner today and I'm scanning everything in the house.

Last night I decided to start drawing again.. I used to have a sketchbook that I used to draw a picture a day in. Then eventually I started just drawing faces. A face a day. It's somewhere under my bed I think. But I might start that up again.. Here's yesterdays face:

Yes, the arms and hands are weird but that's not what I was focusing on. Not too bad for not having drawn anything in years.

hmm..

Earlier today I threw up. For no reason. All of a sudden I just felt really sick and my mouth got really watery so I ran to the toilet and puked up everything. And then I felt better. haha It was weird.

We went to my school and got my books. Yay! But spent a ridiculous amount of money. Ugh. We still have to get book(s) for one more class. Probably tomorrow cause we have to go to the Troy campus. That's where the class is being held.

The classes I'm taking this semester are: Microbiology, Cell and Molecular Biology, & Intro. to Organic and Biochemistry. A lot of microscope classes which I'm not super thrilled about but oh well, gotta take 'em.

I start school Wednesday and I am very excited. Not so much for the three labs per week, but just so I have things to read and learn, I guess. I don't know. I love school. I need to apply for Albany Med soon I think.

I think these are the frames I've decided on:

Not that the picture gives you any idea how they look. But I've been looking for frames for about 3 months and I can't wait any longer. I need glasses so bad. I'm sick of being in a 3' radius bubble. I want to see agian.

Now the next problem is... where will I get the money?

Dinner

The last two nights I've made dinner. I'm proud of myself. hah

First I made Chicken Jalfrezi. It's a spicy Pakistani recipe. I bought naan and made rice with it too. It was really good except I think I let it simmer too long and a lot of the sauce evaporated so there wasn't much to dip the naan in, which is the yummiest part. Overall I did a pretty awesome job. I was happy with it.

I should have taken a picture of it, it was pretty.

Oh yeah and when I was cleaning the kitchen afterward, the sauce/grease stained everything yellow. Then when I sprayed Lysol kitchen cleaner on it it turned bright red. Crazy! What the hell kind of spices did we just eat!? So then I was searching every inch of the place for little stains to conduct chemistry experiments on. Most fun I've had cleaning.

Then I made pizza and garlic knots. Which I make all the time.. so it's not that awesome. I don't really like the sauce that Kevin buys. I always add oregano, thyme and crushed red pepper to my half.. I need to buy some basil I think. And I always think it needs a few more cups of mozzarella! Because that is the best cheese ever invented and I can't get enough of it. I love to chop garlic for the garlic knots. I love the smell. haha. I think because my mom uses it all the time I grew up loving it. I think I make garlic knots better than any pizza place. Not to brag..

Yesterday I bought Interpreter Of Maladies by Jhumpa Lahiri at Barnes and Noble. I hope it's good. I've been in the mood to read about love stories. haha. Yep.

Coconut Records.

Jason Schwartzman can do anything.

Oh, and he's not bad to look at too. Bonus.

lazy

I found my wallet. Don't ask. I still have to wait for my new debit card to come in the mail. When's that gonna happen?!

I forgot what I wanted to say..

Shit.

I was laying in bed the other morning and thinking about something.. and I was like "I should totally post this on my blog!"

I drank a lot last night. So tonight it is just me and my favorite boy on the couch. We are going to watch The Darjeeling Limited I think, or maybe Anchorman. I don't know if he has a preference, as long as he gets his ears scratched.

Dammit.

I haven't found my wallet yet.

We checked mall security and the Guilderland police. And anywhere else I could have left it. No wallet though.

I had to call and cancel all of my credit cards. I gotta go get myself a new license and school ID. I had insurance cards in there.. and a whole bunch of other things. I can't remember half the things that were in there. I do remember there was a ring in there! Damn.

I'm an airhead and I always do things like this.

It's just getting annoying now.

Yelle.

The chick from Yelle is cute. The music is ok but she is absolutely adorable.

The Millstone

Tonight we went to the Millstone with Chris for 15 cent wings. They aren't that great but I kinda like it there. The bartender Heather remembered us after serving us one time the week before. She remembered our drinks and orders and everything. Good memory hah.

Wow, I don't like this thing.. I just realised it will only let me post two pictures at a time. Lame.

After that we hung out with Jessica. We went to Target.

Note to self: buy some new tights

We got some food and came here to watch It's Always Sunny In Philadelphia. So funny. Jessica was telling us how when she was walking down the street she heard something above her so she looked up and a piece of ice fell and pegged her in the forehead and she fell on her ass. hahaha Just picturing that is so funny. Because she's a bit goofy. She said there were people behind her laughing at her. hah embarassing.

She's never been sledding either! She grew up down south and has never even really seen snow. So next time it snows we are taking her sledding. This should be funny.

I lost my wallet somewhere. I've been everywhere the past couple of days so who knows where it could be. Knowing me it's somewhere totally stupid. Also, when I was looking for my wallet I found a sandwich in one of my bags that has been there since October. It has some gnarly mold growing on it. It's pretty crazy. I should send it to Kevin's dad. That would be a nice surprise.

Macro

blabh bhalbhabhbl

Yesterday I finally got out of the house! Kevin went to see The Day the Earth Stood Still and I walked around the mall by myself.. for two hours with my Ipod. I didn't go into any stores though. I just wanted to look at people. And then when I got sick of that I bought a pretzel and went to the food court and sat in the huge window that is really a wall.

Oh I did go to Borders and looked at the PCAT and USMLE books. I got frustrated because there were simple chemistry questions that I just couldn't remember, and I should probably know. I know you have to study a lot for those tests and stuff. And I'm sure most people couldn't rememebr half of those either. But damn I wish I could! It just makes me wants to study harder in shcool.

Then later we went to Chris' house. Drank beer that was expired and played cards. He asked us our opinion on which color floor he should get in his kitchen and showed us samples he brought home. Naturally, I was the only one who liked one color while Kevin, Linda, and Chris and his parents--he says, liked the other. Metaphor for life.--

--I had a friend that always said that. It became an inside joke after a while, and we would say it even when it didn't make sense to say it. She was funny. I heard she's a he now. All I have to say is congrats Alex. I miss you guys.

Then they put in Bad Santa so they could make fun of me. Kevin's dad says that I remind him of Thurman Merman, the little fat kid. Because whenever he calls I'm making a sandwich. "You want some sandwiches?"

Yeah, so far, 2009 has been pretty fucking bunk. I hate 2009. It's only been 4 days but I think that's plenty of time to at least do one thing exciting.

I woke up with a headache. And my head feels like it will explode. I'm so congested. Is this what the new year will bring me? Headaches and snotty tissues? If so. Bring it.

New camera.

I'm wearing a dress today and there are no pockets to put my camera in. Sad.

I want to be on Jeopardy.

I feel better now. I'm ready to go out and play. Somebody take me out.

I'm trying to stay away form the computer as much as I can bear. I've been reading. The History of Love. It's ok. The poor old jewish guy in it makes me laugh. I hate being on the computer so much but I don't want to watch TV and we don't have any movies I haven't already seen 70 times.

Youtube can be very entertaining though.

I wish I could write. I used to be a pretty good writer. I think. Then I stopped writing and reading and started focusing on science and I kind of lost my writing mind. If that makes sense.

Just like when I used to draw. I got kind of good. But I never thoguht I was good enough to keep doing it. And then I ran out of things to draw. I used to put song lyrics into my drawings and I decided I liked that better so I started to write instead.

I kind of wish I could do something creative. I love science. But I get kind of sick of fact sometimes and I want to read something that makes me think. Yeah science makes me think but not that way! Nothing observant or thoughtful.

I can't even describe what I'm trying to say. haha, Maybe if I start using this more it will help.

I wrote a little poem/wordy thing the other day about something that happened earlier in the week and it wasn't too bad. Maybe cause I was drunk.. I'll have to go back and reread it. haha

I'll never post it. I used to write a lot of little things that were pretty good. But I'll still never share them. I did post a few that were pretty vague but I think I deleted them the next day. Maybe I'll get the balls to post after I get going on writing. Or maybe I'll just keep them all closed up in my 34 different books that I use to write in.

Wes Anderson

Today I bought Rushmore. Love Wes Anderson.. and the Wilson brothers. All I need is Life Aquatic and Bottle Rocket to complete my collection. Who's going to buy them for me? K thanks.

And I don't care if it's lame and cliche. Because I enjoy them.

Good morning?

Last night I didn't do anything to celebrate the new year. I sat on the couch in my pj's with Kevin and Alkabits. We watched The Dark Knight, and then switched back and forth through a couple Times Square New Years specials. I drank some wine with hopes that it would help me sleep better. Instead I was up all night choking on the phlegm, and snot, and other junk running down the back of my throat. ugh

When is this gonna be over?

I wish I could have went out and had fun. But I was miserable and in pain the whole time which wouldn't have been any fun for the people around me if I had.
Katie called me though. Yay. That made me feel a little better. I went to bed at 12:30.

party animal

Yay. I used my new camera! Of course I took a picture of my cat! I have no friends to take pictures of. Duh.
Yeah Ok. Time to stop feeling sorry for myself.