i miss this kitty

So I just drove 3 hours, to Corning, for no reason. Fucking rad. I'm glad I wasted all that gas.

Oh well, at least I got to eat my moms food. They always make a shit-ton of food and it's so fucking good. That's probably the only thing I really miss about Corning.

Also, I don't think I have any clean underwear left. I might have my mom do my laundry. haha

They keep begging me to move back. I hate to say it but there's absolutely no way I'm moving back. Even if it is free. And I won't have to worry about money. Actually that is pretty tempting because all I've been thinking about for the last two months is money! Fuck money. There's $24 dollars left of my paycheck. I got paid today. Super.

I don't feel like being in a good mood and talking to people. I just want to go in and lay in bed for the rest of the night.

Sometimes just being in a bad mood feels better than anything.

ugh

So my plans to go to Corning and get shit done got fucked. Now I have to wait until Friday to get that car and a new phone and see my biddy cat.

I love when people make plans and then avoid your calls and you have to hear from someone else that they're "busy".

I think I'm going to open an account at Bank of America on friday. I'll probably keep my account at the Corning Credit Union though too.

I still haven't heard from UAlbany. At this point I don't think I'm gonna be going to school in the fall. There's going to be no classes at all!

I really need to get my shit together. It's too hard when you just changed your address for the second time in a year and trying to remember what places you've told an what not. i dotn felel like tyoing coherently anymore goodnightim gonna wahtc movie

word..

yalright

Probably going to Corning tomorrow. I have to look at a car, hopefully it's better than the one I'm driving now so I can give it back to Kevin.

I really, really, want to see my biddy. I feel so bad that he's living with someone he probably doesn't remember. And is sitting around wondering why both of his humans abandoned him and left him with some stranger. Makes me feel so horrible. I bet he's also wondering what he did to deserve this. I hope he doesn't think he'll never see me again. I heard that he's peeing on the floors and stuff and not adjusting well. My poor baby. I'm sure he does have feelings for us and misses us. God, I feel so awful.

I don't care if I sound crazy. My cat loves me. I know it. haha

Maybe I'll have a chance to stop by the lake. Or not. I'll probably just beg for money and go home.

I want my cell phone back! It's hard not being in contact with people like I'm used to. And, I have so many good Twitter things to say but I never have my phone when I want to say them. Then I forget. Or else I want to take a cool picture, but noooo.

I can't afford my medicine really anymore so I'm gonna try to go off of it. This might be a disaster..

And I definitely want to make sure I get a chance to go to Frills when I get to Corning. Soooooo good.

And me and Kevin have to go in and get our phone plans separated.

hm.. what else..?

yo

Staying with Dave now. It's going alright except we can't seem to stop arguing. And I don't really feel super comfortable yet living in someone else's house and it kind of sucks not having all of my stuff with me.

My manager is making me take next week off because they are worried about me and think I'm not taking care of myself. I guess I wasn't for a little while there. But now I'm not going to have any fucking money! Which is the last thing I need right now! Fuck.

I reallly really reallyreally reallyl want to go to the lake and chill for a week. Get wasted with my family and relax. Sometimes I miss summer in Corning, because there are a bunch of lakes near and everyone has a cottage to hang out at. I miss spending the summer at the lake. It sounds soooo nice right now. Instead it's shitty and rainy here. I need to go somewhere and get my shit straightened out. I need to relax. I can't take all this stress all at once anymore. It's really wearing me out. I'm so tired.

I hate not having my own money too. After I get paid I need to get gas, pay a bunch of bills and then all my money's gone. I'm about to start taking the bus..