Update

I've been thinking. A lot.
Lately I've been feeling incredibly under-appreciated in every aspect of my life. And it's pretty depressing.
Especially at work. I feel like I do a lot more than I get credit for and people have really taken that for granted or not noticed at all. I understand that if I don't do things worth noticing then I won't get noticed but I also understand that one should not be ignored and walked over.

I really, really, want to stop being such a pushover. I'm not a fucking doormat. So I guess that's what I'm going to work on in the next couple months while I'm out of school and I have a lot of free time.
I need to speak up more instead of keeping my thoughts and feelings to myself because I'm the only one who's gonna look out for me. No one else gives a shit. I'm on my own.
Not just at work but in my personal life too.
I don't care if I make enemies anymore. I used to try so hard to get everyone to like me. It's not realistic and it's not healthy, and it's too much work. And there's a lot of people I could definitely do without.
But I also want to try to keep in better touch with old friends or people that I've just kind of stopped talking to. I could definitely use a lot more supportive people in my life. Cause I do feel pretty lonely.

I'm gonna try to save money from every paycheck. My last financial aid package was enough to keep me from living paycheck to paycheck so I can now start putting away a little money from each payday. I'm also going to be working more since I won't be in school this semester. I needed to take a break and figure out what I really want. And what career I will be happy with. I really want a career that has something to do with medicine and human biology and makes me think all the time. That's really vague and really limitless.

Time to start being more happy in my life and also start getting what I want.

"The tragedy of life doesn't lie in not reaching your goal. The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach". - Benjamin Mays